I wasted seed so many times, and I feel terrible. I lost olam haba so many times.
Now, I’m trying to do TeShuva but It’s hard because I always think about how low I fell with all my sins... I’m broken. Whenever I pray I can’t stop thinking about my pgamim. When I am learning Torah I feel like it’s worthless because of all my pgamim... I fell so low.
How do I serve HaShem like this?